Please?

Please pick ME up? Love you? Kiss me?

Ryder Loves Leaves

Ryder 21 Months on Flickr

Getting Ready for Halloween!!!

Halloween 2006 pictures on Flickr

Happy Birthday Mr. Dentist....

This one is yours!

Sade Brings It.

"Quietly while you were asleep...

the moon and I were talking.

I asked that she'd always keep you protected.

She promised you the light...

that you soooo gracefully carried.

You bring the light, and shine like morning.

And when the wind pulls the clouds

across the moon....

your light fills the darkest room.

I can see the miracle that keeps us from falling.

She promised you all the sweetest gifts that only

the heavens could bestow.

You bring the light, and shine like morning.

And as you so gracefully give her light as long as you live,

I'll always remember this moment."

Sade

The Sweetest Gift

Lovers Rock

I'll Miss Playing With Him Everyday...

A Little Needy..

Ryder has been offered an opening at Goddard. What sets Goddard apart is that it is not only a day care center, but a school. A school with a curriculum for every aged child, in every age appropriate room. I thought he'd be wait listed for a while, but they finally called today, and said that there is now a space for him. Do I want it? Yes and no. Am I ready for him to go to day care M-W-F? Sort of. But I'm being that crazy, over-protective mama that I never thought I'd be. Jesus. I just gotta let go, and let my baby boy grow up, and socialize.

The funny part is, is that when the opportunities come knocking, they really come. Right before the phone call from Goddard we met with a nanny. A wonderful, sweet nanny who also has an 18 month old son. She's been a nanny for 5 years, and is a nurse tech on the weekends. She's got CPR, and great references, and her son and Ryder really hit it off. Now the question is, what to do?

We're leaning towards Goddard. We absolutely without a doubt know that it's safe. There's just no question in that at all. With a nanny, you just never know..and you never know about her friends, or her husband's friends...blah blah. We have the weekend to think it over. This whole child care search process has been nuts.

I think I just need a hug. A little needy perhaps? And I wonder where my son gets it from. Or maybe its post-vacation depression.

AND, they found another aneurysm in Dad. =(. It's only 4 cms, and it's below the liver...at 5 cms they'll operate and get rid of it. Dad is bummed, mostly because he can't go back to work. He's so bored, and he doesn't know what to do with his time. You would think it'd be a no brainer, you know- enjoy your days, go fishing, relax, etc...but its just not in him. He's been out of work for four months now, and he feels so useless. Poor dad. He came over yesterday and weeded our entire back yard. Love him so much, and I just want him to be well. One day at a time.

I've been thinking about the Baby Zoo Project too. I think I'm just going to post all the pics here, with the label "Baby Zoo". I was going to wait to start another separate blog, but I think I might not be able to keep up. Plus, I just have so many pictures that I want to share now. Look for them soon.

I feel like Eyore, and I feel like I lost my tail.