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We bought Ryder a snow globe yesterday for fun- so he could get excited about the impending snow. He stared at it for hours, turning it this way, and that.....shaking it upside down, watching the snow swirl around the happy snow man. At bedtime, he wanted it right beside him, so it could snow in his room before it started snowing outside. He picked it up....and then...crrraasshhh.. shattered to a million pieces on the hardwood. His face was red, and he whimpered, "I'm sowwy Mommy.." Poor guy...I gave him a hug and told him that it would still snow, as I tucked him into bed. This morning, he was enthralled. He's loving the snow- and I told him the snow man was happy too. He was free from his snow globe, and he got to feel REAL snow.... Have a wonderful snow-filled evening..
Showing posts with label Ryder. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Ryder. Show all posts
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Sunday, July 5, 2009
3 am Smiles
There are certain moments in your life when all things come together...the things that you thought would never happen, or that you've waited so longingly for. Tonight, more than any other night in Ryder's life, he was a happy, silly, funny, care-free little boy- with other adults. Other adults who've known him for his whole life...other adults that have never experienced this side of Ryder. I just haven't been able to sleep for the last three hours because I just haven't been able to believe it myself, and I've been processing it, thinking about it over and over...he ran in the grass with his shoes off..chased golf balls all over a giant, green yard, followed the German around the yard with two raving psychedelic flashlights, and had some verbal banter with the Seed. Had a conversation about dishwashers with Beefcake. The brownie at 9pm probably had alot to do with it, but still.
This is a big deal for me for two reasons. First, I've been worried and scared that the decisions we made in our lives would negatively effect Ryder. There was nothing more that I wanted in this world than for him to be happy. But it was a catch 22 decision that had to be made, because as all mothers know, you can't evoke happiness onto your children unless you are truly happy. Secondly, well- Ryder has just never been or acted like this. Sooooo free and happy. He has been making leaps and strides in the right direction, but tonight was truly over the top. My heart really did explode. He was THAT silly and happy, that I thought he was going to have a little heart attack and collapse from all the running and joking and laughing.
I have always wondered if we made the right decision. Deep down, I know we did, but its human nature to second guess, particularly when a child is involved. And every single time I hear, "wow- I've never seen Ryder like this, he's really come out of his shell"....helps me to believe that I'm doing OK with raising him under the circumstances....that I might actually be doing well with him. And that's all I want. I want him to become that strong solid man one day. And I want the world to see it, to see that light shine in his eyes, heart, and soul...that light that I see in every single kid I know. The light that I knew he had...but never could show. I see it now, so full and so real. So finally, for the first time in 10 months - it all just kinda feels right. It's all just coming together. And this is a big deal, because god knows I have no idea what I'm doing.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Ryder's Third Year
Ryder has been a dream through this crazy crazy time. We love him sooooo much..he's the reason my world goes round....check him out in his Third Year....We celebrated his birthday and it just is crazy to me that he's three. THREE.
Ryder's Third Year
Ryder's Second Year
Ryder's First Year
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Eat Him Up.
Yes- we're working on the highly anticipated 3rd year Slideshow...but
until then, enjoy the iPhone pics. Don't you just love him?
Monday, March 2, 2009
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Happy New Year!
From the gang...here is our first shot at a "group picture"!! I would just like to add that this was LUCKY.
Friday, December 5, 2008
Ryder's Day Care Report Card!
"Ryder has made great progress in our class. He is a very mature child, and his verbal skills are well developed, and he is able to express himself to his teachers and his peers. He likes to lead and he enjoys adult company but at the same time he plays very well with other children. he enjoys books and being read to, and can name and point to familiar objects in pictures. He recognizes some letters and colors, and he can sort pictures and objects by color and shape. he can complete 5-10 piece puzzles and he understands positional words. He can enjoy art projects. His fine and gross motor skills are well developed, eye/hand coordination is strong and he likes to participate in simple experiments. We will continue to work with him in all areas of development.
It is a pleasure having Ryder in our "Get Set and Go" class."
Now, I realize that is is boiler plate language for the teacher to fill in the blanks...but I'm so damn proud of him.
And, can you believe my little loverboy has NOT BEEN SICK at all this season??? I'm on cloud nine....
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
He is WONDERFUL!
I've been getting headaches lately. Even with my contacts in, I'm squinting. It's time for a new prescription and eye check-up. As many of you know, I'm pretty blind. I pretty much live in my contact lenses. I can't see without my contacts, or glasses, at all. And if I wear my glasses, I feel like they're huge glass bottle bottoms stuck to my eyeballs, and I rarely wear them because of it. I wear them so rarely that Ryder isn't used to seeing me in them...
I get home and put my glasses on after a long drive home, feeling a little headache coming on. I come out into the living room, and....
Ryder: Daddy, Daddy- LOOK!!
FTH: Yeah, Ryder- Momma has her glasses on!
Ryder: She's CUTTEEEEEEE (with a HUGE smile)!
How cute is HE? That's when my heart explodes into a million pieces...
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Singing Lullabies
In the two and a half years of Ryder's life, I've found it impossible to sing lullabies to him without crying. I can't ever sing one without my voice cracking, or my eyes tearing up. I've recently realized this when we cut out his evening bottles- we have to find a creative way to get him to bed- get him to wind down, and ready himself for sleep. We've come up with reading, of course...we let him pick out his bedtime story (usually two or three), and he walks to his bedroom with authority and not sleepiness, holding his books like a kid in school hallways heading to another classroom. But he's usually still so awake after a few stories, so I thought about songs that I could sing to him. But I just can't do it.
As I've mentioned before, I've tried. Here are some of the songs that I've attempted. Mind you, I've failed at completing all of them. Every single one. I thought it was hard when he was an infant because he was just so pure and innocent, and sweet. I would just get caught up in the song and in his face and body and toes that my voice would tremble. It's even harder now because when I try to sing a lullaby, he's staring right back at me with big, questioning eyes, sometimes smiling, when recognizing a song, sometimes saying, "mama no!!". Even when he says no, I still tear up. I don't know why.
1. Silent Night. I can just forget about this one.
2. I Give My Life for You (Miss Saigon)- I KNOW what you're going to say, this song might be a little overwhelming for a two year old, but still beautiful. Still makes me cry.
3. Hush Little Mermaid (Backyardigans)- just a pretty melody. Still cry.
4. You are My sunshine. I can sing this to him during the day, but at night as a lullaby, I just can't do it!!!
5. A wonderful World. Iz. Yup. Can't do this one either.
6. And the one that I really want to sing all the way through, but can't, is Tomorrow. Annie.
The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
Bet your bottom dollar
That tomorrow
There'll be sun!
Just thinkin' about
Tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs,
And the sorrow
'Til there's none!
When I'm stuck with a day
That's gray,
And lonely,
I just stick out my chin
And Grin,
And Say,
Oh!
The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'Til tomorrow
Come what may
Tomorrow! Tomorrow!
I love ya Tomorrow!
You're always
A day
A way!
Try singing that to your baby and not crying. And its just not the copious amounts of estrogen I'm on right now, either. I had problems singing lullabies to him from his first day of life. WHY??
Maybe I should try "sexy back". I'll let you know how that goes.
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